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Saturday, July 17, 2004

11:59PM - Oi

I'm a horrible moderator.... I haven't updated in a while....

So here's a complaint..... and maybe I'm alone on this one, but this happened to me just the other day.... Have you ever noticed that people seem to feel it's okay to take a mental inventory of everything you eat because you're little? Like, you're sitting there eating, and someone feels the need to comment something like, "Wow, you're so little, where do you put it all!".
Being underweight, I've got a pretty fast metabolism, and I end up eating A LOT. I'm ALWAYS hungry.... and it just doesn't make me feel good to know that someone is always paying attention to the amount of food I eat like I'm a pig or something.... And then we wonder why people who are perfectly healthy and small end up with eating disorders.... Nobody should comment on how much anyone else eats unless they're paying for the food.... it's none of your business....
I don't think I've ever heard anyone say to a large person, "Hey, hiding another twinkie away? It's okay.... You've certainly got the room for it!"

It's just as rude to comment on what I eat as it is to comment on what someone larger than me eats. Please don't do it, because it makes me self-consious. I NEED to eat, I'm underweight.... and it makes it harder to do so if I think someone's judging me for it.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

1:57PM - I promised something positive....

One of the great things about being small.... fitting into things that large people just can't fit into. My favorite of these things is underoos. The best place to find underoos is most definately Target.
I like the boys ones, because they're comfy, and have a pocket. But the girls ones are good too.... though they don't hold up for as many washes. I've got girls ones with Carebears, My little Pony, Power Puff Girls and Strawberry Shortcake.... Boys underoos with Batman, Dinasaurs, Scoobie Doo, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Spiderman and Spongebob Squarepants. They're great, they're comfy, and I look cute in them. Plus they're CHEAP. $5 for a three pack is WAY better than $15 for one pair of underwear at Victorias Secret. And if I pack them for going away, or the wash destroys them, I don't care, because I can always find more, most often the same exact ones I had, a full year later.
I used to have a puppy that ate all my underwear.... I wish I'd known about underoos then, because she ate all my GOOD underwear....
And there you go.... a post about my love of underoos.....
rock on.

Friday, July 9, 2004

6:32AM - Have you ever had a....

..... "oh my god, I'm too skinny!" moment?
I had one the other day. I put on my favorite pair of "booty" pants, because I hadn't worn them in FOREVER, and wanted to look cute for the new boyfriend of six months..... and suddenly I realized I didn't fill them out.... they were too big! While they used to be tight on me, suddenly they were baggy.... and I burst into tears. My boyfriend was all sorts of confused until I explained to him that the pants used to be tight and look good on me, and now they just looked stupid.... When I bought the pants I was at least between 10-15 lbs. heavier.... at least 109. He hugged me, but then got a sudden call.... and just as I was wiping away my tears, I ran into my roommate, who has always been a little overweight (and was actually the one who made that rude comment in highschool from the last post). And she asked why I was crying, and I couldn't tell her, because I was afraid I'd hurt HER feelings.... Like she'd be offended that I was having a problem with my self image....
And again, this seems like a double standard. We're nice and understanding of those with weight problems, but only if it's OVER weight problems. If we have a moment where suddenly, something doesn't fit, a favorite shirt or pair of pants is too big.... anyone who's never had that problem rolls there eyes and acts like we're just trying to rub there face in the fact that we're skinny..... when in reality, sometimes, it really is upsetting to not fit into something, it doesn't matter which way you no longer fit into it. I've been trying to gain back some of that weight for a year now, and because of medical stuff, I'm having a REALLY hard time. My mother has the same problem, all though it's due to different medical stuff. Ask anyone who knows me, and they'll tell you I'm a bottomless pit when it comes to food.... It's not like I don't eat.

Next post has to be about something POSITIVE about being small..... like, "fits in small places" or something.....
Rock On.
-Lauren (moderator)

Thursday, July 8, 2004

10:03AM - The First Entry....

I WAS considering writing the first entry about my love of boys underoos.... because I'm small and can fit into them, and well, they're comfy and come with cool things on them like dinasaurs.... but instead I think I'll write something meaningful.

The summer after my senior year in highschool, I started losing a lot of weight due to illness. I was not a large girl by any means to begin with, but I have Cystic Fibrosis, and part of having CF is having trouble maintaining your weight.....
Now, like any other group of highschool kids containing insecure girls, the topic of weight came up. Someone in the group expressed how she "hated girls who were waif-like and skinny" and that she "loved being full figured". And then she looked at me and told me that I was too skinny, to the point where she found it disgusting.

Now how is it okay to tell me I look disgusting, but if you meantion that someone's overweight.... even if it's just to point out that they should lose some weight for there health, it's insensitive??? How come it's okay to pick on somebody because they're shorter than you and refer to them as things like "cute" or "short stuff"?
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